Frustrations

Most of you that know me are aware that I struggle with a chronic medical condition that causes me to have to deal with pain all day every day. Right now my condition has been flaring up a lot and it has been very difficult for me to see how all of these hospital stays can do anything but make focusing on the rest of my life and my studies at Bethany College harder for me. When my condition does flare up I need to deal with more pain than I would on a normal day and it has been a challenge for me to stay positive through all of this.

Even though having to deal with increased flare-ups has been hard and discouraging I have been doing my best to be positive and remember that God isn’t allowing me to go through this for nothing. I am just trying to smile and be thankful for what I have in spite of this situation. My friends and family have been very supportive and the community at Bethany College holds me in their prayers. This is a huge encouragement for me. I know that I can’t that do all of this on my own and I would like to ask my readers for their continued prayer and support.

I would like to thank everyone for their support and help when I am weak.

These songs by Fireflight have been an encouragement to me in times when I wonder if it is all worth it and I would like to share them with you. They are a great band and I would like to encourage you to buy their CDs.

 Recovery Begins (By Fireflight)

I talk, I talk too much
I never open up
To what You need to say
My words get in the way

I search for stillness
But worry kills it
I need to clear my head
I'm tired, I need to rest

It all comes down to this
The quiet in the end
I listen for Your voice
Recovery begins

The times I hear You most
Are when You bring me close
I'll follow as You guide
While darkness turns to light

Whisper to me, whisper to me
Whisper to me, whisper to me

All I Need To Be (By Fireflight)

Hoping with each new day
I'm moving forward, I push the fear away
And I let go
'Cause I'm so through with barely hanging on
Leaving what's in the past behind
I come closer to crossing over the line
And I won't stop
Until I get what I've been fighting for
You've said it all before

Tell me again that I am strong
Tell me again that I won't fall
I need You here to fix me where I'm wrong
Take me beyond what I can see
Break me, make me believe
You have made me all I need to be

Knowing all that I can do is be open when You start to move
In my heart
And now my God, I finally hear Your voice
You've said it all before

Who I am is all I've got
And I can't be who I am not anymore

(I am strong, make me believe)
You have made me all I need to be
(I am strong, make me believe, make me believe)